Lady Cave

by Brit Benjamin

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released December 2, 2014

Most of the songs on this album were recorded in the several bedrooms of Brit Janeway Benjamin in 2013 and 2014. Tracks #1 and #3 were recorded at Cosmic Zoo in Los Angeles, California. Track #9 is a cover of a song written by John Thill. The Lady Cave album name was picked over lunch at Canter’s Deli with inspiration from Patrick Owens and Aron Eisenberg. The album artwork was created by Kyle Blair. Thank you for listening.

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Brit Benjamin San Jose, California

I'm a songwriter and a law student.

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Track Name: Just So Happen
I want to wake up in my lecture hall a photograph
of someone I once felt knew
who she would not ever be, existing obviously
existing as a lonely soul
totally free and free of control with
no moss to cushion me as I roll

And then I met you and I felt light
It kind of hurt but it hurt alright
And then I met you, you needed love
and I just so happened to love you

I used to fall asleep in hazy fields of playa dust
with someone who's much like you.
Now there isn't much you left.
I stifle empty threats:
I could be free and free of control,
the ocean is open and totally cold with
no hands to harbor me when I fold.

And then I met you and I felt light
It kind of hurt and it hurt all night.
And then I met you, my gut says go,
but I just so happen to love you.
Track Name: Thinly Veiled
You and your thinly veiled everythings
Anything hidden enough to be true
You spend your time rationalizing why
I should be kept out of the loop.

You and your interpretations
Reframing the shit that you do
I wonder why you insist on your lies
You say it's just your point of view.

You and your flexible boundaries
All that you keep out of sight
You undermine my suspicion but
I'm, in the end, always proven right.
Track Name: Heavy But Open
I know a girl, a girl like you
Who's tough but cute
And she fell in love with a man in a tailored suit.
And he fell in love with a girl who was sweet and soft.
And she, of course, fell in love with a boy who laughed her off.

My heart is heavy but open
It's fearless, it's already been broken.
I think I should chill.
You're only going to hurt me if you will.

I know a girl, a girl like you
Who's cute but tough
And she was in love with a man who thinks love is enough.
And she is in love with a man who thought love was enough.
And he is in love with a girl who likes to treat him rough.

My heart is heavy but open
It's fearless, it's already been broken.
I think I should chill.
You're only going to hurt me if you will.

My heart is heavy but open.
Track Name: Lady Cave
Love you dearly, keep you near me
Make you strong and make me brave
Hold you close yet far away
In my lady cave.

And there are ways of consenting
that only happen in the most silent spaces.
And there are things that I've prevented from happening,
but still I come upon those traces of you.

Lure him with a siren's lay
and toss him to a sailor's grave
Chilled beneath the rolling waves
In my lady cave.

And there are ways of dissenting
of holding onto your radical views
that don't involve the destruction of all the most
delicate traces of you.

Let my past selves pass away.
My old songs will mark their graves.
Shameless of that which I've made
In my lady cave.

And there are ways of presenting yourself
Withholding all of your terrible truths
Of being small and highlighting all of the
glittering traces of you.
Track Name: Robosexual
Slapping you, I felt something I hadn't felt before
Or maybe you are just the type of bot I can't ignore
Somewhere in the depth of the seas,
beneath my skin
between my knees
I came to know the truth: I am robosexual.

It's possible you're rigid and I optimize for flow
I might have to lubricate to make the machine go
You make my fans fail
I always feel I'm overheating
I've got to update on the truth: I am robosexual.

Mothers that I've known have told me not to stray
to wait because someday I'd fall in love the human way
but that's not true
I never do.
If I'm in love then what are you?
I finally understand: I am robosexual.
Track Name: Math Whiz
I do, it's true, I've always been in love with you
I keep my eyes on the prize of being here with you
And even, in the worst case, that I'm wrong
I'll twist your words and write another song

I didn't want to fall for a math whiz.
You make everything in love like a pop quiz.

Your love is like socialism: every mouth's full
but nobody ever feels fed.
You pull the wool over my eyes
I'm surprised that I'm still surprised.

You share with me, but never really openly
I try and pry but you make it pretty hard for me
You're oh so "access denied"
It's like some part of you has died.

I didn't want to fall for a math whiz.
You make everything in love like a pop quiz.
Track Name: Never Known
I didn't have to say no
It would have been just fine
After all, he's had his fun
so I want to have mine.

I am always honest but
I could have taken you home
And he may have heard something
but he would have never known.

It's only fair if it's really fair
We both have fun and neither cares
We grow our love and then get to share
It's not a zero sum game.

He likes a girl who is loyal
Even when he lies
But if he gets to sleep around then
Fuck yeah, so can I.

I should have taken you home
He could have laid no blame
I know I can feel close to you and
love him just the same.

It's only fair if it's really fair
We both have fun and neither cares
We grow our love and then get to share
It's not a zero sum game.
Track Name: Allergic to Cats
Now I'm going to sing you my favorite song about the time at Burning Man...

You stupidly consented to her love
And let her be dependent on you, too
You cry to let her go, I cried because I know
You'll never love me half as I loved you.

I feel my body shaking with worry
You gave her a bowl I made of curry
Apparently such symbols are beyond your grasp
You don't understand why I think you're such an ass
You cry to see her leave, I cry in disbelief
I thought you were allergic to cats.

You're shocked that I am overturned with pain
To your cold, robot heart it seems insane
You cry to think I'll go, I cry that you don't know
I want to upload love into your brain.
Track Name: We Smoked Speed (John Thill Cover)
I've been bored for years and no one seemed to give a fuck
A low sigh was all that I could muster up
I've been passed around like I don't even know what
Handed down 'til I had no place to call my home.
Roaming cheap hotels until I found you
You looked like a man cut from the glass
Meeting you, it really kicked my ass.

We smoked speed together.
We smoked speed together.

And right then it all clicked for me
I knew that I could transcend this mortal shell
With your love, the drugs, and G-d up above
I could get out of this halfway hell.
I wore a grim face but we made love in a way that
really broke the spell of this living Hell but later that week
They busted you
They said you'd be going away for five long years.

We smoked speed together.
We smoked speed together.
We smoked speed together.

I was seventeen and understood everything
I stole malt liquor to deaden the pain
I woke up sweating in my sister's bed
Transformed into something I couldn't understand.
I didn't have any notion of what I should do
I wanted to die or get fucked into oblivion
But all I did was cry to myself:
Sleep is for the weak.
Sleep is for the weak.
Sleep is for the weak.

Let them have their saccharine dreams of
Gold watches and sleek machines
If I had a home, I would probably go there
Strike a match and burn it all down
I've survived out here for this long, I guess.

I don't need anyone.
Track Name: Not A Stalker
I wanted to be single
I didn't mean to meet you
I shouldn't have asked your name
and then stalked you on the internet.

But he said...

I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just want your information
Faster than you're going to share it with me.

And then I made a big mistake
I said, "It's okay, I'm not really that freaked out"
I should have told him that nobody likes to be creeped on
Through the internet.

But he said...

I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just want your information
Faster than you're going to share it with me.

He started talking about animal rights.
He told me he was a vegan.
He showed me all the blogs he writes.
They were okay, for a vegan.

I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just like you.
I'm not a stalker, I just want your information
Faster than you're going to share it with me.